& who she used to be.

[ i like to pretend they are different things. ]

i like to pretend that i have changed.





i see all those pictures every night before i dream.

no one could ever understand exactly why i like them.

but every picture reminds me of something.

the pictures tell a story that no one else could understand.

they describe every feeling i have and every feeling i want.

every passion every dream every hero

so every few months, i tear them down

and start over.

and try to make a new 'me'.

but it never works.

i still have patches of wall with pictures from 7th grade. looking at them makes me sad and happy at the same time. and underneath them, i have drawings on the wall. little scribbly happy stuff i drew on the wall in 5th grade. yeah. story of my life on the walls. and someday it'll be forgotten.